Hewitt's poignant memoir narrates his fraught relationship with Elias, which began as a fleeting romance before morphing into a long-term partnership when Hewitt moved from the United Kingdom to join Elas in Sweden.Their story is both a meditation on queerness and its joys, and a heartbreaking account of loving someone suffering a severe mental illness, and Hewitt interweaves his own experiences with parallel histories of grief, shame, and becoming from the lives of Gerard Manley Hopkins and Swedish poet Karin Boye. But while the events recounted are harrowing, the story is not one of despair, but of liberation, as Hewitt moves toward self-acceptance and liberation from his ghosts.